I have breast cancer.

Yesterday, I found out that I have breast cancer. I’m 35, have no family history, am relatively healthy, and I have breast cancer. Two weeks ago I felt a lump, and despite my initial hesitation to go in and be seen about it, I did. I actually went straight to a specialist. My lump was confirmed by ultrasound… and the immediately after by mammogram. I had a biopsy the next day, and then yesterday my doctor’s initial prediction of cancer was confirmed.

So here’s what I know right now… I have a 2 cm tumor, and so they are giving me an initial staging as stage 1. So far they have not seen any indication that it has spread to my lymph nodes, but they will confirm this when they test my lymph nodes during surgery. I have a 9 cm calcification field surrounding the tumor that is also cancerous. They are less worried about this part. Due to the size of the calcification I will have a mastectomy, probably double (at my own request), and immediate reconstruction (or as I’m calling it, an upgrade! LOL). Surgery will probably be 3 to 6 weeks from now. Within the next week I will get further test results that will tell us if I need chemo, so I am praying that these results are favorable for a surgery-only treatment plan.

My initial feelings of shock, anxiety and sadness have been replace through faith with peace, optimism and gratefulness. I was able to take the official results yesterday in complete confidence that God’s got this! The peace that I feel is unreal.

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” – Philippians 4:6-7

The hardest thing so far has been seeing the worry and concern of my family and friends. And I get it, it’s scary and sad. But please, don’t worry on my behalf! My God is bigger than all of this!

I don’t know what my needs will be over the next several months, but right now what I need is prayer. Some specific prayer requests:

  • Pray for my complete healing
  • Pray that my next round of results come back indicating no need for chemo (positive, positive, negative on the three things they are testing for)
  • Pray that I continue to be filled with the peace of God and can attack this cancer from a position of positivity and optimism
  • Pray that Blake and I find the right words and right timing to communicate this news to our kids

Through all this I feel extremely blessed to have my faith, my awesome family and friends, a very competent doctor, a lot of flexibility with my job, and health insurance.

Now my PSA – ladies, if you feel something, see a doctor!! Even if you’re in your 20’s or 30’s. Even if you don’t have family history. Even if you eat organic, unprocessed food and are healthy! I never thought when I felt my lump that it would actually be cancer. But it was, and I’m so glad I called.

Moving forward, I want to talk about my cancer. I want to joke about it. I do not want it to be the elephant in the room. I want to focus on the positives (like my upcoming new boobs!) and I hope you all will join me in all this.

Love you all!
Jess

30 thoughts on “I have breast cancer.

  1. Jessica, I will be praying for your complete healing and that the next results indicate no need for chemo therapy. May you be filled with the peace of God.

  2. I prayed and will continue to pray! I look forward to the praise reports that are coming! I thank God He hears and answers us! After reading you “open/close door” post, I prayed that prayer! In less than a week my company sold the area of the business I worked in and before my last day at that job, I had a better one! All to say, you do a wonderful job with your gift as an encourager, and I look forward to that continuing!
    Love and blessings!
    Tracey

  3. Jessica I just want to give you a big hug. I’m available anytime if you want to talk. Your strength and the love of your family and friends will get you through this. 💕

  4. Jessica I am so shocked to hear this. But I am so proud of you and your positive attitude and strong faith. I will be praying for you. God has got you in this. Stay strong.
    Love you,
    Juanita

  5. Prayer coming to you for sure. I do not see you anymore physically but love all five of you and love getting to keep up with you thru fb. You will be fine and always your amazing self

  6. My lump was discovered after my doctor insisted that I go for my mammogram. (It had been 3 years since my last one.) I chose to have a single mastectomy to remove all of my stage 0 chicken nugget sized DCIS. After surgery, they found that I had a small invasive tumor just barely large enough to require chemo (based on the treatment algorithm). That moved me to a stage 1c. I had an expander put in during the mx. My right swap-out and left reduction & lift was 3 weeks ago. I’m healing great. Looking back, I wish that I would have gone with a double mx.
    A sense of humor and a willingness to share & inform helped me get through my journey. The Facebook Mastectomy Support Group helped me understand what was happening along the way. Doctors who encouraged me to ask questions helped me face the fear with facts.
    We are so much more than our breasts. We can find bright points in anything that happens. (Losing my hair from chemo let me stay SO MUCH cooler this summer. The mastectomy gives me a good excuse to get my first tattoo.)
    I am on Facebook as Debbie Willis Hamlin. You can go look at my Live feeds of my steps along the way.
    I welcome you, my pink sister, to a group that is larger than it should be, but stronger than we once thought we were.

  7. Hey, girl! My fab 4 shared your news and I want you to know that you are in my prayers. I too have a mass and am having a lumpectomy on Nov. 6. My surgeon opted not to do a biopsy bc regardless it needs to come out. I’m here if you need. I understand the peace aspect b/c it is overwhelming how all of a sudden you’re ok. I will tell you that I’ve had moments of, “Wow, really? What if?!” But, yes, we serve a mighty God and He is in control. “Be still…”

    Praying!!!!

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