Prayer works, y’all.
It’s been a little over 2 weeks since my last update, and wow, what a crazy, emotional, roller coaster the last few weeks have been. I’ll try to catch you all up best that I can.
When I last wrote, we had met with my breast surgeon who had told us of suspicious spots on my MRI. When we met with the oncologist the next day, he confirmed her suspicions and told us the cancer was actually at least stage 3, and that we’d need a PET scan to confirm it had not spread (which if it had would make it stage 4 – treatable, but not curable). And it was at this point that my world started spinning, that I started to feel real sadness and worry over my diagnosis. Sadness for what this was putting my family and friends through, worry about how long I would be around for my kids and husband. The real dark places that a mind can go when faced with this kind of news. There was a lot of crying at the uncertainty of it all. Blake was also rattled by this news. It was a scary day. What we thought was stage 1 “early” breast cancer, was actually at least stage 3, and my oncologist said it had been around a while. Gut punched.
And then my small group rallied around us. They called one of our pastors, they showed up at our house the next morning. They laid hands on me and Blake – they prayed for us and they cried with us. It was such a beautiful and powerful expression of Jesus’ love for us and the power of prayer.
And after that experience, my sadness and worry left. I physically felt the weight of the anxiety lifted from my chest and I felt as though God was telling me that it was going to be okay. I spent the next few days busy with follow up appointments – a biopsy of a lymph node, a CT scan and a bone scan (my PET was denied by insurance), but I was at peace.
That Wednesday morning I received the amazing news that my scans did not show any evidence of metastatic disease (stage 4), and that I would continue on the treatment plan discussed with my oncologist: TCHP (Taxotere, Carboplatin, Herceptin and Perjeta) chemo every three weeks for six cycles, with Herceptin and Perjeta infusions continuing for a year, double mastectomy in early April, radiation and 10 years of hormone therapy.
So fresh off the amazing news of clear scans, with my girlfriends and family, I had a head-shaving/kick cancer’s butt celebration that evening. While I had been contemplating the idea of a “party” to shave my head, I had to really consider it. The idea sounded awesome in theory, but I wasn’t quite sure how I’d feel center stage with my friend (and hairdresser) buzzing my head in front of 30 of my closest ladies. But I prayed about it, and when I made the call to go forward with the party, I felt confident in the decision. And let me just say, that I am so, so, so glad that I did. Nothing will make you feel better about your newly bald head that all your girls hooting and hollering and telling you how pretty you are! It was such an empowering experience! I didn’t cry, but instead, surrounded by all that love and support, I was beaming. In some silly way I felt like it was my transformation into a warrior party, because that’s actually what I feel like with my buzzed head lol.
[Photo cred to my awesome friend and amazing photographer Liz Williams]
The day after my party, I had my port placed (a device that is surgically implanted under the skin to allow chemo drugs to be infused easily). The recovery from this has hurt a little more than I expected, but it’s been manageable.
And then Friday, November 17th, I had my first chemo infusion. We were there for almost seven hours, but the day went really smooth. Blake was with me the entire time, the nurses were super sweet and I had some friends drop by to bring lunch and hang out for a bit.
Post chemo: Saturday went well… and Sunday morning went well… and then Sunday afternoon the intense nausea hit (and barreled through Monday as well) and that was pretty rough. I was able to keep my fluid intake to the 64 ozs they recommend, and I was able to eat throughout the day. The best way I can describe the feeling is it’s very similar to the first trimester of pregnancy – constantly nauseous, hungry (but nothing sounds good) your tastes are off and you’re tired. And since I’ve been through that three times, it sucked, but it was not unfamiliar territory. Today is the first day that (aside from fatigue) I feel almost back to normal. Hallelujah! I was fortunate enough to have Blake’s mom with me for the week so I was able to feel yucky without having to take care of the kids or do housework, and Blake’s stepmom is coming for a few days to help out as well (so I can continue my daily naps lol). Gosh I am so, so thankful for all the help and support we have had through this whole ordeal! It has meant to world to me and Blake to have everyone praying for us, sending messages, gifts, meals, helping with our kids and just anything you can imagine that would be helpful. We have the BEST people in our lives. Period.
And I am happy to report that all of those prayers HAVE been working! My tumor, which the MRI reported as 2.6 cm in diameter a few weeks ago, and that my oncologist “rough measured” at 3 cm right before I started treatment, is now barely detectable. I can still feel some of the DCIS (the not so worrisome other cancer I have), but I can no longer feel “the mass”!! Y’all, talk about humbled, on my knees, praising Jesus that my cancer has already responded so well to this chemo regimen!! I go back to the oncologist on Monday morning and I may be heel-clicking down the halls!
For my praying friends, below are my specific prayer (and praise) requests:
- PRAISE: that my scans were clear from further cancer spread
- PRAISE: that my tumor is responding well to treatment and SHRINKING
- PRAISE: that my body is handling chemo well
- Pray: for my complete healing from this cancer
- Pray: that my family and I can remain peaceful and positive throughout my treatments
I will continue to claim victory in Jesus name over this awful disease, and I will be thanking Him for all of the many blessings that have come and will come through this trial. Excited to see how He will be using me!
“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.” Jeremiah 29:11
God is GOOD!!!! No doubt about itð¤ My prayers will continue
Thank you Diane!! 😊
You are doing great! So proud of you and praising the Lord for answered prayer! Praying that this year will bring good news and continued healing for you. Love you and praying for you daily!
I appreciate it!! 😊😊
Amazing news!! I’ve prayed for you and will continue to. And you’re definitely rocking the shaved head! ☺️ God bless you and your family ❤️
Thank you!! ☺️
You look so beautiful. I pray for you every day and will continue to pray. I so glad god is answering our many prayers.
I truly appreciate the prayers!! Thank you!
God is just so incredible! I will continue to keep you and your family in my prayers. Remember that if you need anything, I am just a phone call away!!
Thank you Celeste!! 😊😊
You don’t know me… but I have known Blake since he was a kid. I am so proud of you and your journey. I have PRAYED FOR and followed you since I heard the news. I have spoken to RuthAnn… who is so proud of you she cannot contain herself… on a many occasions and she gives me your updates. Please know that your story reaches SO far. Keep telling it. You are a LIGHT for so many. May God bless you and keep you and your family through this entire process.
Awe, thank you for sharing that with me, and thank you for the prayers! ☺️
Sharon Deeb Kurby
You are amazing, sweetheart!!!! Your positive attitude, your inner strength, that beautiful smile and sharing your story is admirable!!! I am saying prayers every night for you, your family and friends. I hope your story inspires other women going through the battle with breast cancer. Keep it up, Jess, and please keep us updated on your progress. Many bkessings.
Sharon Deeb Kurby
You are amazing, sweetheart!!!! Your positive attitude, your inner strength, that beautiful smile and sharing your story is admirable!!! I am saying prayers every night for you, your family and friends. I hope your story inspires other women going through the battle with breast cancer. Keep it up, Jess, and please keep us updated on your progress. Many blessings.
Thank you, Sharon!! 😊
Stumbled over your blog while reviewing elf on the shelf ideas!
Sending you love and prayers from Australia.
Thank you Nicole!
Jess, I have just read three of you blogs. Each one has blessed me in a different way…all positive! My name is Melodie. I was recently diagnosed with breast cancer…,initially 12-8-17 and just recently received an additional diagnosis 1-4-18. I’m scheduled for a double mastectomy 2-2-18. Your positivity has given me life. I don’t know you, but i pray for your complete healing and that your family can remain peaceful and positive through your treatments. Blessings to you! If you care to follow my blog, it’s harmony28blog.wordpress.com
Hi Melodie! Thank you so much for the prayers and reaching out to me! I’m sorry you’re having to go through this crazy journey too, but I’m so glad that you too are relying on God to see you through! I will also pray for your complete recovery and a successful, uncomplicated mastectomy in February. 💗💗
Thank you! Blessings!!!